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Name: Lindsey
Birthday: 11/18/1986
Gender: Female

Interests: Basketball, Softball, Noodles, Cheese, Zane, Liz, Bones, Rainbows, Zane's Dog, Kittens, Swinging! haha anything else just ask me!
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

	I got a new Xanga this morning! If you want the link just ask me for it! Have a good day everyone! ...I love you so much Zane...
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Aw, Last night Zane didn't feel good. I felt really bad cuz there wasn't anything I could do.

But my sister gave him tylenol and then he went to sleep and this morning he felt better.

So Jared (lil bro) told my mom that Zane has been spending the night but I just talked to her on the phone and she didn't say anything about it so I wonder if she is just going to let it go until she catches it cuz she can't do anything to me until she knows for sure. Just like she does for Zach and smoking pot. She hasn't caught him so she can't yell and if she tries to yell im going to say that to her. Thats my plan for the day!

So we had a 2 hour delay today. Not really all up for going to school for 2 and a half hours but whatever nothing I can really do about it. Zane left cuz he has to be at vo-tech at 10. I have to put Jared on the bus at 10:30 and then i'm all allow until 11:15 when I have to leave to go to school. Yippi. lol

I miss him already. It's not going to be the same at night time without him next to me.

I can't wait till we are outta school cuz then my mom isn't going to boss me around anymore. I'm going to come and go as I please.

Then i'll just stay at his house all the time so then I don't have to deal with her and the kids.

I don't really know what else to write. So Bye Bye!

...I love you Zane!...

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Monday, February 28, 2005

So today was blah but Mom is in a good mood. We shoveled the driveway twice and then we played yahtzee twice and we played another game. It was fun. Then Zach, Matt and I played monopoly and then Zane came over and then I bit him and left marks and I felt really bad and then he was pinching me but I didn't care even though it hurt I didn't care cuz I know i hurt him when I bit him. I really didn't mean to do it was he was tickling me and I hate being tickled.

Why can't I just be a nice person all the time? I'm so mean to some people. They can tell me i'm not but I know I am.

I feel really bad, I don't try to be mean I just like to mess around. I'm sorry i'm so mean.

So I was supposed to go to work tonight but I didn't have to go in cuz they were dead and Steve called and told me not to come in cuz they didn't need me. Which is cool. I got my tax money back $202.00. Hellz yeah, even though it's all going to my mom for things anyway.

So Zane is going to spend the night tonight, mom said it was okay as long as he stays in Jared's room. That was only if he brought her M&M Peanuts but he forgot. I don't think she really cared though cuz she went to bed. Meh doesn't really bother me. I'm so bored. He left and went to Musser's I think something is wrong.

I think I did something to make him upset or angry at me.

Like always.

I hope we don't have school tomorrow cuz I wanna go out and play in the snow with Zane and everyone. I think it would be a lot of fun. He wanted to do it tonight but it's dark out and it gets really cold at night so I said I didn't want to.

Maybe I should have said I would. Most likely would have made him happy cuz he wants to hit me with a snowball.

Seth and Jared (my brother's friend's) don't like him and he didn't even do anything to them. Oh No he said nigger in public. So fuckin what. I hate when people judge people so quickly without even gettin to know them, I'm sorry but I don't like people but I don't go and tell them or tell there friend's or the person there dating. It's just stupid kid games, oh no I don't like them cuz they said a bad word. Come on now grow up. Get a life. Be lucky people actually like you two because the things you guys do. You both will eventually screw up your lives with the stupid things you guys do. Maybe someday you will realize that.

I don't know if I wanna play softball this year. I mean I know I wanna play but I just don't know if im going to. I really need to make up my mind cuz if i'm playing I have to be at the meeting if we have school tomorrow after school.

Better decide soon. Tay wants me to play so she has someone else to talk to besides the other girl's who don't really talk to her. It's going to be hard though cuz I need to work and practice is going to be everyday after school for a couple hours, maybe I could just go to work after practice somedays.

I don't know though cuz I would prolly be really really tired after practice. Man this sucks. I hate school and everything else.

I really need to stop writing in here now. It's getting really long and Kevin said I write alot so maybe I should stop now. Have a good night everyone. <3

...Zane I love you...

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Wow. Today was the most pointless day ever. Went to Votech and then found out that Penn Manor and everyone had an early dismissal and we get out at 11:30 so Mrs. Smith calls and finds out whats going on with us cuz its pointless to go back to Penn Manor for an hour cuz we will have missed lunch and everything but they said we HAD to come back and blah blah. So we go back to Penn Manor sit in class for an hour and then come home, what a waste of time.

I was planning on going over to Zane's house after we got out cuz I have to work tonight but that didn't happen cuz my mom was complaining and saying how I can't leave my car anywhere cuz if we have school tomorrow then how and I goin to take Jared to the babysitters and all this bullshit and I asked her why she couldn't just get Megan to watch him for an hour and then just put him on the bus and then I could of just went to Zane's and then he could have taken me to work and picked me up and I could have just stayed at his house and then went to school in the morning from there BUT noooo that wouldn't work cuz im not allowed to spend the night at his house cuz thats not right. Man I hate this. I just wish I could do what I want but no I can't because I have to listen to my mom and I know everyone says that I should just do what I wanna do but no I can't cuz its just not how it works.

I need to find a new job. I look all the time but no one is hiring right now, and its going to be even worse when summer comes around cuz everyone is going to be looking for one, but then again it might be a little easier for me cuz i'll be outta school and all that and im 18 and all the other people that will be looking for them are going to be younger. BLAH I just hate life, nothing is easy. The only thing in life right now that is easy is loving Zane, lol Nothing hard about that.

I love you hunnie!

So im going to tell my mom that we need to go talk to the people about the Air Force in the next 2 weeks for im not going to even think about going. I need to start getting shit fiqured out. I think I wanna just take a year off and find a job and make some money and then go to school or maybe even the Air Force but I just don't wanna join and then be like I don't wanna do this and then I can't get outta it.

I'm sooooo confused and sooo lost about what I wanna do. I'm always just so afraid that if I do something i'm going to lose Zane but I know that i'm not going to it just worries me sometimes....I mean he tells me all the time we will get through anything and everything and all that but I don't know I believe him but it still scares me a litte. I just know that he is the one I wanna be with for the rest of my life and I want him to be the daddy of my kids someday. I just don't wanna do anything to ruin my chances of that. I trust him and I know he isn't lying to me when he tells me that he loves me and he wants to be with me for the rest of his life and I hope he knows that I mean it when I say it too but life is soooo fucked up lol Okay so this is just a whole thing of me repeating myself but I just don't know what else to do or what else to say or how else to go about everything so this is just what I have to do. Write it down in this journal for the whole world to read it. lol

Okay well thats enough outta me for one day. Zane I love you so much. I hope I get to see you sometime today or tomorrow!

I'll be happy. Can we play in the snow? Just maybe?

:kisses: and :hugs:

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Saturday, February 26, 2005

SO...Last night Belinda was better. But just as i thought she wasnt going to stay better, it always does this stupid stuff ot me. But i hope she is better by tonight. I hate it when she is sick.

ha and the pineapples didnt work but we think its cuz of the chocolate...:-/ (not that anyone knows what im talkin about anyway) muah ha ha ha

Zane I love you so much! You are the greatest!

:kisses: I cant wait to see you tonight!

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